Over Indulging

Gluttony – one of the seven deadly sins.

Jacky cooked for me last night, probably the first time in 4 years? The meal was quite big: 2 pieces of sirloin steaks, 3 corn cobbetts, a side serving of corn & onion and 2 grilled tomatoes. When I had finished I was understandably quite full; a normal person would have stopped there…not I….

A half hour later I found myself at a café in Beverly Hills having chocolate Fondue with the girls. Instead of being sensible and ordering a peppermint tea, I ordered a hot chocolate.

By the end of the night I was sooo ridiculously full that I could easily be mistaken for being pregnant…not a good look.

I really have to start eating more healthily.

More Thank yous

Left to right: From the Girls, Hudson, Mum's work

Thank you everyone for all the flowers! makes the house feel a bit like a florist and brings a bit of cheer to a rather gloomy bunch of people. I'm overwhelmed by all the support.

The funeral is tomorrow.

Rest In Peace

RIP

Ying Man Lam

1916 -2005

A Thank you

I Just wanted to thank everyone for their well wishes and support during this very difficult time. It’s very hard to watch some one you love slowly die, you feel helpless and you battle with the pain of hearing them suffer and the guilt of wishing that it will just be all over for them.

I have begun putting up some pictures of my trip so please my travel blog if you get the chance.

Lisa bought me a pink Sachi bag for X'mas and I finally bought shoes to match...yay.

I really like doing things like scrap booking or making stuff, to help me take my mind off things I've started making earrings for my friends. My first attempts have been ordinary but I will hopefully get better with time.

Home Again

I arrived back in Australia yesterday morning and rushed out to the hospital in Crows Nest, my Grandfather is dying. I found out one week into my holiday, about the same time as the Tsunami diaster so this hasn’t been much of a holiday for me. Before I left my grandfather was fine, then he stopped eating for 3 days and collapsed we found out he had bronchitis; he was in pretty bad shape. After further testing, the doctor found cancer cells in his lungs and due to his age (90) and his current condition treatment such a chemo would cause him too much pain and suffering. So they have taken everything away and will let nature take its course.

My relatives in Hong Kong have all flown into Australia now; it’s a really tough time for the family at the moment. It’s the hardest thing to see someone you care about become so helpless. I fight back the tears and put on a brave face because if I start crying everyone else will. The doctors have given him a week possibly 2, depending on how much my grandfather fights and how much longer his body will hold up. Despite the heavy morphine his mind is clear; he’s trapped in a body that will no longer work.

I’m just about to leave for the hospital now; I haven’t been sleeping too well. Mum’s been out there since yesterday morning and hasn’t come home. I think I wrote this entry to help prepare me for what will happen in coming days. When it happens, I know that he will no longer be in pain.